Shannon Falls, August 2012

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Worry Lines

I'm sick of worrying. Tired of it. Over it.'s ALL I do. I know Who controls everything, yet right now life just has me down. I feel like I'm at a crossroads in many senses. Seriously thinking about talking to someone besides my poor husband who catches the onslaught of my worry, grief, and tears. Poor guy.

I'm breaking out, gaining weight, turning gray, and getting worry lines...all from stress. That's ridiculous. My life is good; maybe some things could be in better shape, but overall, it's quite good. I know people whose life just stinks; I'm so thankful I don't have those worries. Yet the troubles I do have, I obsess over.

I'm battling jealousy, dissatisfaction, job stress, and financial worries (always, not matter what's in the bank!). But I do need to be positive about one thing especially-- my fantastic husband. He blesses me in small ways every day, but last night he stepped out of his comfort zone, stripped the puke-ridden crib and Hayden (he can't stand throw-up) and slept in the guest room, since Hayden desperately needed one of us. David put him with me in our bed and journeyed down the hall. We could have fit in our bed, but it would have been tight and a very long night. Hayden doesn't normally (or ever, really) sleep in our bed, but poor guy, he needed the proximity last night. So thank you, David, for standing firm and secure when I can't.


Katie A. said...

Hang in there! Satan loves to attack us, especially when he sees it's working. I will be praying for you, and let me know if there's a more specific way I could pray.

wcrowder said...

I'm gonna be honest - while I was reading your post, this song came in my head!!!
"Be strong in the Lord and never give up hope. You're gonna do great things, I already know! God's got his hand on you, so don't live life in fear. Forgive & forget, but don't forget why you're here. Take your time to pray, & thank God for each day; his love will find a way! These are the words I would say!"
Perfect for your precious heart. I know when I get like this, I haven't prayed/read His word enough. (NOT saying that's what's wrong here! :) but I am saying I know how it feels!) Be strong in the Lord! What's great about that is that He doesn't expect us to be great on our own. He actually WANTS you to realize you've got to rely on Him! You are a great wife, mother, teacher, daughter, and friend!! You hang in there, girl!!

tpillstrom said...

This may not be helpful, but I have been able to survive many, many dark times with this verse:
Habakkuk 3:17-18
"Though the fig tree does not bud
and there is no fruit on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord;
I will rejoice in the God of my slavation!"

I am praying for you!