Shannon Falls, August 2012

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Keep Coming Back

I've come back to my blog page repeatedly today, only to shake my head and venture to another site. Why? Because I'm overwhelmed with a few things, and I'm honestly not quite sure who reads my blog, and if I expressed how I really feel on a few things, I'm not sure if I would make a situation better, make it worse, or make it worse then better. Whew!

David and I are working through some major changes for our family and life, as you've all read for weeks and weeks now. I'm sure you're sick of me mentioning that and not sharing what it is! I know, and I'm sorry. However, there are just some things that can't be shared...yet. God is doing HUGE things in our lives, things that are going to take us away from the comfortable and normal. We've seen open windows and open doors, walked through many of them, are preparing to walk through so many more I can't even begin to describe my emotions, and we've hit a major roadblock.

This roadblock has upset me for many reasons. When God is just laying things before you and you approach the person/people you think will be the most supportive or willing to do anything in support and you get a "no," it makes you sit back and reflect a minute. (And if you're this person reading this, I'm not sure how you're feeling having seen those words.) On one hand, I can see why it was a no; however, in our quest to be obedient, what we asked of these people was a sacrifice on their part and not a decision we came to lightly. I guess that makes it hurt worse, then, because it was the most humbling thing we've ever asked. And truthfully, that was the 2nd time we've received a no (3 years apart and in different situations).

I'm having to go with the promise that God has a better plan then. I don't know if His plan is what we think it might be or if it's something even better. I've prayed some crazy prayers since yesterday morning!

On a lighter note, we attended a welcome home bbq/football-watchin' party yesterday for a friend of ours who just returned from 13 months in Afghanistan. It was great to get out of the house and be with great friends, food, and fellowship (I love alliteration!). Hayden really showed himself (in a good way), which prompted someone to say, "He really is like what you say on Facebook!" Why, yes, ma'am, he is!