Shannon Falls, August 2012

Saturday, January 1, 2011

New Year, New You

Okay, so 2011 is probably going to be bringing many changes to our lives. Some of these I'm ready to talk about, and some I'm not. While I know putting my thoughts out there can help with accountability, there are just a few things I'm not quite ready to share.

I always fear that when I say "changes are coming," people automatically assume we're pregnant. Why? Because this has happened over and over and over and... Well, we're not. To my knowledge, there are no plans for another Ainsworth this coming year. God may have other plans, but for right now, we're making other life decisions before we bring another baby into our lives.

Those changes might very well involve career and location changes. I don't think I'm jumping the gun throwing that out now. Most of you know that I'm looking to go back into children's ministry. And David's job, while he's very good and has moved up consistently, is not permanent. That is not where my husband's heart is; it's not his calling. And I'm not going any further than that right now.

After being home with Hayden the past 2 weeks, we've seen significant changes in his personality. He's always a pleasant child and fun, but he's been different. That's gotten us thinking, "Should I be a stay-at-home mom?" We know this much: we can't stay in our current house or living the way we do if I were to stop teaching. I'm not saying that's our plan, but it could be another change for 2011. I have the utmost respect for stay-at-home mothers because there have been many moments when I needed a break and couldn't take one. Hayden is wonderful, but some days are very trying!

I don't know where else to go with this post. I have a million and one thoughts rolling in my head and I can't put them all down. David and I are still discussing many of them. Silly planner than I am, I want those answers now! But it's not time. Even if I knew some of the answers, there's not a thing I could do as I'm under contract until June 1.

So all of that being said, does anyone have any advice on writing a statement of faith? David and I both need to get one written! Thanks!