Shannon Falls, August 2012

Monday, June 22, 2009

Father's Day

For David's first Father's Day we had Hayden dedicated at church (First Biloxi). Apparently getting a bath before church and merely getting ready wore him out!
June 21, 2009
We then had some family and friends out to our house for burgers and hotdogs and all the trimmings. All in all, it was a good day! I wish we could have done more for David's first Father's Day, but I think he was pretty pleased with it. He got new grilling utensils and Hayden "made" him a framed poem entitled "Daddy's Boy."

ps. I've yet to understand what it is that makes me feel this way--there are many times I want/I need a break from my son. You mothers know how it is. But then when someone else has him, it's like I can't wait to get him back in my arms. This happened yesterday with a friend. Hayden was completely content and slept in her arms. But I was itching to have him back. Is it jealousy? It stirs me to no end when Hayden fusses and screams and then someone else takes him and calms him right down. It's as if as his mother I should be able to always do that. But I can't, and I know it. However, 9 times out of 10 when he's fussing while someone else has him, I can pick him up, console him, and soothe him like no other. I know those times someone else has that power are those moments when I'm aggravated and tired (or whatever other emotion I'm projecting) and he feeds off of me. I think I'm doing better at controlling these emotions of jealousy or whatever they are, but it's difficult to understand why I want a break then desire to have him immediately right back. Maybe it's just one of those things as a mother. Like how my husband can sleep through Hayden's screams coming through the baby monitor, but at the slightest whimper I'm wide awake. Hmmm...


Amy said...

What a handsome little man! :o) Happy belated Father's Day to David! And for you, you can't help the way you feel... Hayden is very fortunate to have you as his Mommy! And might I add that you are doing not only a fabulous job with him, but a super job at keeping us all updated with new pics, etc. You're making the rest of us look bad... ;)